why dont you die?
heard from most people that they want to die knowing the world loves them and they will be remembered. i think otherwise, i would like to die not known and forgotten.
somehow i know im afraid of emotional attachments people have with me. as warming as it is to know there are people whom care and feel i mean something to them, i sometimes prefer they not.
because if you are gone tomorrow, i know i can handle my emotions well enough. but if im gone tomorrow, will you be fine?
Anyway, i dont really enjoy people asking me if i miss them, him, hersoever because i know i most likely dont in the way they want it to be.
was on messenger for alittle while when a box popped out.
he: how come you dont call me, hardly contact me?
me: you should know i hardly contact anyone.
he: ok......
he: do you miss me? haha
me: does it matter?
he: of cause.
me: why?
he: because it just does.
me: i prefer it doesnt.
he went offline. (.........?)
my unanswered answer is no. ( ha, funny if truth hurts but i dont know how to lie)
heard from most people that they want to die knowing the world loves them and they will be remembered. i think otherwise, i would like to die not known and forgotten.
somehow i know im afraid of emotional attachments people have with me. as warming as it is to know there are people whom care and feel i mean something to them, i sometimes prefer they not.
because if you are gone tomorrow, i know i can handle my emotions well enough. but if im gone tomorrow, will you be fine?
Anyway, i dont really enjoy people asking me if i miss them, him, hersoever because i know i most likely dont in the way they want it to be.
was on messenger for alittle while when a box popped out.
he: how come you dont call me, hardly contact me?
me: you should know i hardly contact anyone.
he: ok......
he: do you miss me? haha
me: does it matter?
he: of cause.
me: why?
he: because it just does.
me: i prefer it doesnt.
he went offline. (.........?)
my unanswered answer is no. ( ha, funny if truth hurts but i dont know how to lie)
posted by Miu at 1:59:00 PM
2 Comments:
What resonates with me is knowing that one will not miss someone the way they want it to be...then again, sometimes, it's worth it to tell a white lie just to make that someone happy - even for just a moment...that's what I think. Life is short, that is the truth,so sometimes it's all about treasuring the moments.
mrdes: haha... treasure the moments of living in the beautiful dark?
i dont like it, they can if they like it and want to but not from me or with me. :)
life is short, you never know when you die so why not truth today?
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