Sometimes when i look myself and stare at myself in the mirror or a picture of myself, i feel like giving up everything. i feel like giving myself up to.......... i really dont know. Just a feeling of giving up and vanishing into air..... blown away to where the wind would take me....

as light as a seed....
as light as a petal..
as light as a tiny feather,
as light as nothing......

i am scared.
scared of myself. scared of where i am because i dont know where i am. this place i am in feels so unreal. i dont know where i am...

im crying.... because im scared. i am scared.