alittle disgusting Christmas.

Its chirstmas eve eve. But its feels so strange to me. Hmmm... actually alittle disgusting and i dont know why. Anyway, its gonna be christmas soon in two days time. Have you bought your presents? Have you ordered your turkey? I heard the turkeys are running out everywhere, i have no idea why turkeys, why not hainan chicken? Santa did not say he only eats turkey. For all you know santa is hainanese. Ya, hainanese christian.

Anyway,
Have you, have you? have yous.

I have nots.

I dont feel like buying presents for some people. I dont want to write cards to some people. I dont really know who the some people really are because i dont go into thinking who they are. If i write to you, means i write to you. If i dont write one for you, dont be sad. Maybe i just forgot, maybe im just cranky, maybe i dont dont feel like. It might mean something about the level of feelings of the friendship or whatsoevership, it might really mean nothing at all. Whichever way it might be, doesnt matter. So, i hope if you happen to be one whom didnt get a greeting from me, please dont bother to be sad in any little way. Its okie.... really.

I guess i just dont feel like christmasing this year, just like i dont feel like eating dumplings today or drinking ribena.

I dont really feel like saying merry christmas in general because i dont feel christmasy. But ill greet some people merry christmas not because i want to, because i still want to make that little effort in acknowleding their chirstmas moods and that little effort to make them feel acknowledged for their moods, hoping it would make them alittle happier because i know they care about me and wish i would feel as joyful as they would be. So, because they care, i care to make that effort for this coming season for i want them to be happy too.